13th bit from me

Its me again :)

Well ended up making a salad last nigth and still had 5 points left over at the end of the day, 4 of them were form excercise though so ate 22 points all up. Joey is on the early shift tonight so i had saved a couple of points for if I feel like a glass of wine or a beer, yeah sad I know was only yesterday I said none during the week lol but hey one night during the week is better than 5 nights which is what I was doing before and hey if I dont end up having it it leaves me more points tonight for snacking whilst watching my shows on TV (Tuesday night is my tv night with All Saints, then Rove)

Food today: 2 oached eggs and 1 slice toast for breakfast, banana for morning tea and a coffee, ww beef burgundy and a salad for lunch, will be having freshly cooked mussles in their shells tonight wiht chilli and tomato and herbs and then a stir fry of prawns and vegies and =chilli for main course:) I got a ww pudding and some low fat ice cream for dessert too! yummo!

I had to go out to the shops before to restock on yummy food! I was feeling in a rut looking in the cupboard for tea as I hadn't menu planned this week. Actually my menu planning isnt going much frther than 2-3 ahead at the moment, most days its just one day ahead! I am OK wiht that though as I am getitng bored quickly wiht the foods I am eating so this helps keep variety by not being committed to cooking somethig I dont really want to eat! Tomorrow night is tortellini and sauce which I was mean to make last week but wasnt in the mood for pasta!

I walked Tiahna to school ths morning and then did laps of the oval with her before walking home again (did I post earlier that her school is currently doing laps each morning to attempt to walk around australia? its a fitness incentive for the kids)

Water intake has been great, getting roughly 1.5-2.5 litres a day. Drinking fomr a water bottle makes it easier aslong as I remember to keep it nearby. I am still weeing a fair bit more though, hopefully that stops soon!

3 more sleeps til weigh in :)

12th bit from me

well one and half weeks and I am still going woohoo!

Had a pretty good weekend. Saturday I went out for dinner wiht dh. We went to thai and ordered all point friendly meals, stir fries and soups etc all stuff that is good for points. I had some wine too and still didnt blow out!

Sunday I went to my sisters for the day and night for a sleep over as she lives a good drive away. I took a ww meal for lunch and they cooked a roast for dinner. In the afternoon we went for a good walk too so that would have helped with the popcorn and one tim tam (still cant believe I only had 1!) I consumed during the movie with yet more wine, didnt count points yesterday ...actually just stopped and added them up then, including the wine it was 32 points! so deduct 3 for my walk and it was only 29 points for the day. Considering I am still breastfeeding and am allowed 26 if I like anyway I think that should be ok :)

Back properly on track today, going to attempt another week of no wine on week nights (didn't get through last week but didnt consume much during the week, heck I do sound like an alco sometimes!) Loads of water instead and diet coke as my treat.

On the subject of diet coke, I still cant believe I have come to like it! That and pepsi max do taste fine, they are actually nice when I am craving something sweet! I have never been an excessive soft drink drinker but I'd always have a can of coke with take away or when visiting friends for lunch etc and occasionally during the week I used to ask Joey to bring me home a can of coke and chocolate on his way home form work :) None of that anymore, actually i cant think of the last time I drank REAL coke!

Back to today :) Todays eating has been good, nutri grain and a slice of toast for breakfast wht the obligatory coffee ofcourse, then a subway sweet onion and teryiaki for lunch wiht a diet coke, tea is steak and egies and I'll probably have a ww ice cream cone while I watch my shows tonight :) I walked to and form kinder hwich is a 40 minute walk, also when I took Liam to the mchn I left my car parked there and walked up to the shops so another 20 minute walk.

I went out this afternoon and grabbed more salad stuff so if I get picky tonight and want to snack I can whip up a quick salad bowl or have a cup a soup.

So so far so good this week, not perfect and been over points but all good all the same :) 470 grams needed to keep on track, anything over is a bonus!

11th bit from me

drum roll please.....ddddddddd...dd.d.d.d.d.d.d.d.d.ddddd.

I lost 2.3 KILOS!!!!! OMG! Thats the biggest loss i have ever had! I certainly don't want nor expect to keep losing at that rate but hey for a first week back on track its brilliant!

So as you can figure thats good motivation to keep going! I had a chat to my ww leader too today, she is actually really lovely, and we discussed working out my WW points for breastfeeding as we don't want me to lose so much each week, a 1/2 to 1 kilo is a better goal and ofcoure if its a bit over a kilo then hey thats pretty good too.

I spoek in formnt of the whole meeting too today, well form my butt on my chair, and explained how i have been a member for 4 months and I lost weight then regained and then started afresh last week and had a good loss for my first proper week back on track, was good as I hate public speaking but I was kind of proud too :)

So Goals this week:
Keep tracking
Menu plan at least 1-2 days ahead
Aim to eat between 22 and 26 points with an average of 23-24.
Keep drinking my water
Excercise at least 4 times this week.

So to follow my goal of wanting to lose 11.8 kilos in 21 weeks for my friends wedding:
week 21: 86.8 start weight
week 20: 84.5

2.3 down = 9.5 to go!
Loss needed = 470 grams a week!

10th bit from me

1 more sleep to go!

Well thats a nearly a whole week of journal keeping, definatly must be a record!

Now for those reading, I apologise for the terrible typos but I really am too lazy to go back and edit so if you want to keep reading I hope you understand typonese :P

Ooooh weigh in tomorrow! I am nervous to be honest! I have set aside enough to pay for 12 weeks again in advance so thats great. I am feelign confident the scales will go down and not up, but down by how much I am not sure!

Last ngihts dilema was fixed too! I wore what I mentioned but popped my trench coat, jacket thingy over the top and felt ok. I htink part of it was nerves after not shooting a wedding for a while and not dealing wiht clients on a professional level liek that for a while. I was definatly self conscious when in there but that isn't an entirely weight thing thats just some confidence I need to build back up again!

Today was a good day! I photgraphed a lovely mother and her 2 gorgeous children. I wore my black pants, black top and denim jacket and didnt feel too frumpy. I came away feelign i got some wonderful images so cant wait to see them!
I needed that boost after last ngiht too and feeling os yuk!

Foodwise I have been good, had a beer lastnihgt as cracked it wiht Joey over rubbish, he can be so umspymapthitc at times, noone wants to ever here the phrase 'I told you so' about anything, it really isnt constructive! I did well not to pig out though so thats good. I am off soon for a walk, havent done a hell of a lot fo excercise this week but the knee is feelign good today so willg o once I get home from school pick up.

Back otmorrow wiht the results of my first week back on track!

9th bit form me

yes back again so soon!

My first real whinge!

As i said tonight I am off to see potential clients for a wedding. Now I dont know what to wear! I have washed my jeans and brown top and can iron them but they make me feel fat. They are about my most decent outfit that is plain and simple other than going the whole hog wiht black pants etc which makes me uncomfortable as I am a casual person, my photography style is casual and I feel people relax more if I am dressed more casually yet still neat. I do wear all black when shooting a wedding, maybe i should follow that style through my appointments also? agh I dont know!

I really really need more clothes but apart from the obvious lack of funds there is also the dilema that I dont want to buy clothes in this current size (BTW I am currently a size 16-18 thoguh I also own a few size 20 tops :( i cried the day I had to buy them!) so what do I do? Bt ehte bullet and wear what I have washed and ut out and use the old fake confidence trick??? I think thats what I'll have to do? hmmmm might go peek in the wardrobe, might find something else though I do doubt it!

8th bit from me

2 more sleeps!

Well i caved lastnight and had some wine :) It wasnt too bad, I had a handful of red rock chips when dh got home too so went over my points by about 3-4 points so still ok I reckon.

Straight back n track today! I had a weight loss shake for breakfast which is 3 and a half points. I dont have them often but was a hurry this morning so figured that and a banana was better than no breakfast! Joey is currently using them as meal replacements as he is trying to lose weight also, he isnt having much luck either!
Lunch was some sashimi, yummy! and a little bit of a japanese curry and I also pinched a couple of the kids hot chips! naughty naughty, off ot the naughty spot for me! ah lol tis ok was only a couple and I counted theminmy points. just demolished a yummy salad for afternoon tea and willg o have a piece of fruit in a minute.

Tonight is a weight watchers meal for tea as I have to go see a couple about booking me in as their wedding photographer for early next year! Gee hopefully they will see a totally different me by the time I shoot that! I'd like to buy osme new work clothes too, but am not really keen to buy some in my current size!

7th bit from me

Ah back again :)

Ok last few dayshave been great! I have done well sticking to my points every day! I have walked most days except for today, though I did walk to school today but thats only 20 minutes so i dont really count it. My knee has been hurting a bit though so figured it was a good idea to rest it a bit.

I didn't make the tortellini for tea tonight instead made a thai green curry but alow fat version, it was very yummy! I had pita pizza for lunch again today, they are great, make you feel like you are getitng to eat heaps and somethign thatis almost a treat like take away!

Speaking of take away I havent had any! yay! Good thing is Ihavent taken the kids either, so hey we all get healthier lol

Tonight though am craving a glass or two of wine! I often have a few glasseson a Tuesdaynight wiht All Saints and Rove. Its like my switch off time and I enjoy it. Might go see if Brian has a bottle I can open if not I'll go without as I can't be bothered leaving the house at this hour just for wine.

Speaking of Brian he really annoyed me today, i htink i was a bit tired and iritable anyway but he keeps scrubbing my wok with solvol and I have asked him not too! I have explained how it should be cleaned and otld him that I dont need him to cleanit anyway as I am happy to do it! Then he had alittle dummy spit over it sayign the bottom would drop out! lol ah you have to laugh or you'll go insane!

Well thats it for me, my shows start soon!

3 more sleeps til weigh in! I'll be happy with anything over 1/2 of a kilo!

6th bit from me

Well 3 days into the new plan and so far so good!

Yesterday was good, ate well, had 2 chevups and 2 eggs for breakfast, ww meal for lunch (the chick pea curry one, its quite nice) and I cooked mussels in chilli and otmato for tea, they wqere soooo deliscious! I had a ocupel of glasses of wine last ngiht and accounted forthem imy points. I also planned my snacks for wiht my dvd and the wine. Often if i drink wine it kills me food wise as I so want some chips or similar to go wiht it. So last ngiht Ihad some popcorn and some rice crackers and salasa and was satisfied :) So even with my wine I stayed within my points! No more wine this week, will have some at the EB dinner on Saturday night instead.

Didnt excercise yesterday as we had a friend of Tiahna's come and stay for the afternoon and night and I ran out of time. Today though I am going to go for a swim this evening, havent been for a swim in a while so am looking forward ot it.

I've been great with my water intake, I have some water bottles that are 750mls so I aim to drink at least 2 of them a day and am finding it not too hard if I just keep it nearby.

Today foodwise I have been good too, the kids requested bacon and eggs for breakfast so bought them regular bacon and got myself some WW bacon. Poached the eggs and had a bacon and egg toasted sanwich was so deliscious! Dieting doesnt have to be all bad! I have a pita pizza cooking now, with lite ham, 3 different types of capsicum, spinach, olives, mushroom and chilli it smells divine! Tea tonight is tofu noodle vegie stir fry. have to finish plannign the rest of the weeks meals too.

Monday night = silverside and vegies
Tuesday night = tortellini and a tomatoe and vegie sauce
not sure abotu the rest of the week yet! Maybe if I can at least plan a day ahead will be good!

Today when I got dressed I looked in the mirror and had ot go change my top as the one I was wearing made me look very chunky :( I had the outfit Ihad on in the pic below.

5th bit from me

Ok I did it! I went to WW! and boy is it bad!!!!

I weighed in today at 86.8 kilos! Firstly that was a gain of 1.5 kilos from my last visit and secondly well in the 13 visits I have lost only .1 of a kilo, yes a measly 100 grams! Granted I also got my period today and I havent been abe to excercise much the last few weeks due to hurting my knee but still this is ridiculous! I need it to change! I need to make it change!

So resetting my goals:
to be 75 kilos or under by Jo's wedding. This is a loss of 11.8 kilos in 21 weeks from today. Ideally I would have loved to have been at 70 kilos by her wedding but I think sticking and aiming for a half kilo a week consistent loss will be a bit more achievable.

Ok changes to make THIS week!
Get back into walking now the knee is feeling a little bit better!
TRACK my points EVERY day!
Drink plenty of water.
Have wine on 2 nights only! and make sure it is accounted for in the daily points.

So far today has been good. Had fruit for breakfast, salads and a ham and salad roll for lunch. Salad and 1 fish finger for snacks, about to have a cup a soup then for tea is chevups and steamed vegies oh and some pont free mushroom and asian greens soup I am starting to cook now.

I walked for 30 minutes this morning and for 20 minutes this afternoon.

Will do my measurements and post them in here also. I will aim to measure once a month so hopefully I see some change there.

Measurements:
21/1 Now
Neck: 38cms 38cms
Upper Arm: 33.5cms 32.5
Waist: 101cms 99cms
Hips: 116.5cms 115cms
Upper leg: 69cms 67cms
Calf: 39cms 39.5cms

21/1 is the date I joined weight watchers at the start of the year. So looking at this at least I have still lost a tiny bit of size. My upper leg isnt suprising as one thig I have done in this time is increase my excercise a fair bit (except for the last 2 weeks where it hasnt been non-existant but just less)

4th bit form me

well 3 days and this is my fourth post. thats about as dedicated as I have ever been to any type of journal before, wonder if I'll ever post my 100th bit!

Well today has been a good day. I discussed with Joey that I really need to keep on track if I want to lose at least 10 kilos by Jo's wedding, he has said he will support me which is good. He also wants to lose around 10 kilos so hopefully we can achieve that together!

Excercise wise I did gardening. I trimmed 3 trees out the front yard, pulled most of my now dead vegetables form the vegie garden and did a bit of weeding.

Food wise I have been great today, havent been hngry and havent eaten any not so great foods. I had a shake for breakfast, Joey bought some slim right mix and we have both been haivng it occasionally with a piece of fruit for breakfast, this works for me as I am not a big breakfast eater anyway and having this and a banana and a coffee really is enough for me and I feel quite full which is good.
I dont think I had anythign for morning tea? Oh yes I did I had some toast with ham, tomato, cheese and chilli. Had a ww frozen meal for lunch, the hot pot one, I dont mind that one. I then had a wendy's smoothie for afternoon tea whilst I did the supermarket shopping. Then now for dinner is fish, oven baked chips and steamed vegies. That will be me for the day I think, must go check the tally of points on the fridge tracker.

Tomorrow morning is weigh in and get back on track properly for me! I really don't want to go but I know I need to be accountable each week and this forces me to be. Facing the weigher each time is really quite daunting, I often wonder if others who go in feel the same stress I feel when I do it. Especially lately as I seem to have gained most of the time! I just want to leave and cry and give up!

Tomorrow though I WILL GO! I will get weighed and I will stay for the meeting!

Will be back tomorrow with the results!

3rd bit from me

back again already!

Was thinking after posting on EB that I need to set my goals out here. To remind myself and to be able to look back upon in time.

I have things I want like I want to be healthier, I want to be fitter, I want to have more energy etc.
But to make it more specific:
I want to be able to run 5 kms non stop.
I want to run in the August womens fun run with Kylie.
I want to comfortably fit into a size 12.
I want to weigh less than 70 kilos.

Timeline goals:
Jo's wedding October 14th is 21 weeks away. I'd love to be ina size 12 by then! I'd love to be at least under 75 kilos by then. Thats a loss of roughly 1/2 a kilo a week form here til then to achieve it!

Mini goals:
Fix my knee so i can at least keep walking up and get back to running asap!

Will make a weight goal once I know for sure what my weight is on Friday.

Mini mini goal....actually GO on Friday!

2nd bit from me

Well 1 day and I am already back.

Figure I best work how to post a photo here so I can pop some of my most unfavorite fatty pics here! I do need some reminding of how I look, its funny because sometimes I forget and think I am still skinny like I used to be, then I see a pic and go 'oh wow is that me!!!!' ewwwwww

but that is what I am trying to change, so rather than being so negative time for change!

I CAN DO IT
I WILL DO IT
I AM DOING IT

I'm not sure of my current weight, as I havent been going to Weight Watchers as regularly as I should, partly due to be being busy with the kids or having Jye and well sometimes I think I use those things as an excuse to not go.
Plus my 12 weeks is up and I need to pay another 12 weeks or I know I wont commit but money is tight and am not sure I can afford to pay that amount up front. Joey suggested a gym membership instead of WW and using the WW money for that but I really dont want to go to a gym, I have done it before and whilst I enjoy swimming and doing the body balance classes the rest is just so boring and I can't stand being around half the pretentious people you tend to get in a lot of gyms. plus add the cost of child care on top of a gym membership and I'd rather spend the extra cash buying yummy healthy food and getting good walking, running gear and well a nice massage now and then!





1st bit from me

Well I decided to start an online blog...

Lets see how long this lasts!

The motivating factor is somewhere to ramble on about myself, my life and in particular my current struggle with my weight loss.

I'm sure it will bore who read it to absolute tears so feel free to move along at any time. believe me I wont be offended, actually I wont even know so do as you please...

What is it with blogs that sudenly you feel like you are actually speaking to someone and not just yourself?

Well thats it for now... exciting stuff eh???